Sunday, October 25, 2009
currently am very sick. very very sick. doc says i'm a suspected case of h1n1. just that cos no one does the test to confirm it anymore so she didnt run the test for me. been sick since fri. sat my fever went down ready. but somehow my fever went up to 39.3 last night. took half my life. i was like semi unconscious. i can only rmb my mom coming into my room many times and stuffing the thermometer into my mouth a few times. and some med i think. not too sure. too sick to rmb.
been told by the doc to stay at home till i'm totally well. which kinda sucks cos we finally have work to do at BSC but now i cant help out. :( and also my research on freaking banking & finance is not done.. and i can only do it in sch cos i have to use special websites only accessable in sch. which seriously sucks ttm.
and i cant get out of the house. if i ever ever have to go out (which is highly discouraged) i'd have to wear a mask. freaking mask! that day after i saw the doc the doc made me wear one. so when i was walking home, everyone siam-ed me like i had air transmitable aids or something! one guy was looking at the floor and he looked up and saw me he machiam siamed me 1m and almost banged into the fruit stall behind. just like what ah lian said "stupid ignorant singaporeans" HUMPH! dumb ppl... and so insensitive too!
gah... my nose is sooooo stuck. T.T and i feel like a dragon breathing fire... and my eyes made up of fire balls... so red and hot la... high fever, headache, body ache, weak limbs, cough till chest pain, sore throat, runny nose, occasional nose bleed... i feel like dying. T.T
current temperature: 38.1 (considered good already. LOL)
update: i think if i cont coughing this way my lungs would fly outta my mouth soon. oh and my voice now is 90% air, 10% air :'(
been told by the doc to stay at home till i'm totally well. which kinda sucks cos we finally have work to do at BSC but now i cant help out. :( and also my research on freaking banking & finance is not done.. and i can only do it in sch cos i have to use special websites only accessable in sch. which seriously sucks ttm.
and i cant get out of the house. if i ever ever have to go out (which is highly discouraged) i'd have to wear a mask. freaking mask! that day after i saw the doc the doc made me wear one. so when i was walking home, everyone siam-ed me like i had air transmitable aids or something! one guy was looking at the floor and he looked up and saw me he machiam siamed me 1m and almost banged into the fruit stall behind. just like what ah lian said "stupid ignorant singaporeans" HUMPH! dumb ppl... and so insensitive too!
gah... my nose is sooooo stuck. T.T and i feel like a dragon breathing fire... and my eyes made up of fire balls... so red and hot la... high fever, headache, body ache, weak limbs, cough till chest pain, sore throat, runny nose, occasional nose bleed... i feel like dying. T.T
current temperature: 38.1 (considered good already. LOL)
update: i think if i cont coughing this way my lungs would fly outta my mouth soon. oh and my voice now is 90% air, 10% air :'(
remember always to smile. 8:46 PM.
Sunday, September 06, 2009
just finished watching 27 Dresses on HBO. wasnt the first time i watched it but i still felt immensely moved by the movie. somehow it just touches me how Jane, after all the shit she's been through in life, finally finds her prince charming. i know its a typical story line. but i still love it. love the actors and the way they bring life to the characters hence adding lotsa colour to the movie.
maybe another reason why i enjoyed watching the movie so much is cos i was kinda emo earlier today. lotsa things running through my head. i find it amazing how fast ppl's actions/behaviour change; how they can at one point of time make u feel so loved and suddenly make u feel so invisible.
i feel so angry and deceived. why is it that when problems appear u run and avoid. why cant we sit down and try to work things through. and now i have a constant fear of u going back to that someone. i feel like grabbing u and scolding u really bad. but i cant bring myself to and i know there's no point in it. i've cried and now its enough. i shall move on. its not worth it.
for those who are wondering if this is about a break up? yes it is. and i am well aware of those occasional spammers who come and say lame stuff on my tagboard thinking i dont know who they are; but actually i'm well aware. if they wanna spam and attempt to mock my situation then go ahead i dont give a shit they'll just get deleted without getting a response.
hmmm this is one of those times where i find my bloggie really lovely and dear to me. cos somehow i just feel emotional and a need to speak my mind regardless who or if anyone even reads this. HA! is this an angry post? nope. just one where i feel like talking bout how i feel.
oh well. been trying to keep myself occupied. afterall, it is the holidays! mightly holidays!! ever since my last paper... went basil's hse for K, went out with girlfriends, went K with classmates, went for hair cut with fiofio, accompanied fiofio and jaz for job interview, went for dinner with classmates, went dinner, chilled, and camwhored with cx and dear shermy, went for chalet with pal friends, and of course archery trainings. and the hols have just begun!! woohoo! check out my fb for pics. me am too lazy to loads them here too cos then i'd be doing things twice.
hmm whats ahead for the hols? more outings, more chalets, more girlfriends, more great friends, mom overseas, stay overs, overnight mahjong, hanging out, chilling, drinking, and having a hell of a time! this hols jasmine chua is gonna have a fucking great time and no one can stop me man!!! WOOHOO!
remember always to smile. 9:09 PM.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
i dont wanna know. wish i had no feelings no emotions. wish i couldnt feel anything. life would be so much easier. wish i was dead.
remember always to smile. 12:18 AM.
i see my little emotions running and flying everywhere. i wanna catch them and grab them out of the air but its useless. they keep getting away from me. wild. they're not allowing me to control them. even the biggest net wont help. nothing can. nothing will.
remember always to smile. 12:10 AM.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
BORED...................
basil fio and i in pal room now. none of us are studying. HAHAHA!! and our purpose of staying here is to study.. =.=
i hate studying seriously.. and like wa lao... DAMN FUCKING BORED CAN!!!??
law is tmr and its like freaking 60%. SIXTY PERCENT!!! lee yuen yuen had better not be the marker for my paper. if not i sure FAIL. cos that idiot dunno how to maek papers one la. he mark 10 mark ques can only explain to us where the 3 marks are from. the other 7 marks all just disappear into thin air. marvelous... =.=
stressssssssss. i wanna have super power determination and suuuper duper brain power. BUT! i dont think its possible.. MEH! =(
basil fio and i in pal room now. none of us are studying. HAHAHA!! and our purpose of staying here is to study.. =.=
i hate studying seriously.. and like wa lao... DAMN FUCKING BORED CAN!!!??
law is tmr and its like freaking 60%. SIXTY PERCENT!!! lee yuen yuen had better not be the marker for my paper. if not i sure FAIL. cos that idiot dunno how to maek papers one la. he mark 10 mark ques can only explain to us where the 3 marks are from. the other 7 marks all just disappear into thin air. marvelous... =.=
stressssssssss. i wanna have super power determination and suuuper duper brain power. BUT! i dont think its possible.. MEH! =(
remember always to smile. 11:15 AM.
Monday, August 10, 2009
at basil's hse now trying to study. note the word used here is TRYING. i have yet to accomplish anything big yet... lol. havent even cleared one lec. =.= epic fail.
fio's the most hardworking one.. think she studied the most today... sian sia!!!!! I HATE HAVING TO STUDY!!
basil's hse damn small sia... the living room is the size of my kitchen before we modified it... LOL epic funny la!! damn sian now. seriously...
missing you... why cant you understand..
fio's the most hardworking one.. think she studied the most today... sian sia!!!!! I HATE HAVING TO STUDY!!
basil's hse damn small sia... the living room is the size of my kitchen before we modified it... LOL epic funny la!! damn sian now. seriously...
missing you... why cant you understand..
remember always to smile. 3:33 PM.
HELLO!!!
exams are coming up soon. my first paper is BIZ LAW on fri. so screwed i have yet to start studying!!!!! hahha! EPIC! gonna study in pal room tmr from 930am till 930pm. hope it works.
hmmm been going for archery training quite often recently. well at least more often as compared to last time. HAA! this year's juniors all damn rich kids sia!!!! all buy metal bow... still got ppl buy TF riser!!!! jealous... my mom doesnt want me to buy new bow. so i cant upgrade to metal. GRRRR.... oh well but quite true la i dont need a metal bow cos i dont compete often and i dont go training often... *self consoling* gah.
anyway... archery juniors are nice!! fun too!!! but i only know a few of them leh... the rest all dunno hahaa!!! =.= why this year all guys!!! the girls only got... 1? and she's non-competitive. sian... =.=
exams are coming up soon. my first paper is BIZ LAW on fri. so screwed i have yet to start studying!!!!! hahha! EPIC! gonna study in pal room tmr from 930am till 930pm. hope it works.
hmmm been going for archery training quite often recently. well at least more often as compared to last time. HAA! this year's juniors all damn rich kids sia!!!! all buy metal bow... still got ppl buy TF riser!!!! jealous... my mom doesnt want me to buy new bow. so i cant upgrade to metal. GRRRR.... oh well but quite true la i dont need a metal bow cos i dont compete often and i dont go training often... *self consoling* gah.
anyway... archery juniors are nice!! fun too!!! but i only know a few of them leh... the rest all dunno hahaa!!! =.= why this year all guys!!! the girls only got... 1? and she's non-competitive. sian... =.=
remember always to smile. 1:59 AM.
Monday, July 20, 2009
hmmm recently i found out a few things. i can be very patient, understanding, gentle. i actually do have a ticklish spot which i am not telling where, only someone knows. and i like how it feels to be in love. =)
went to do mani and pedi with mom today after jap class. was her first time doing she was so suaku! haha! like getting amazed at everything. and of course mom paid for it! weee! so now my toe nails and finger nails are all chilli red. =D had sushi tei for lunch. uuuuber filling. then dinner had pepper lunch but i spammed too much honey garlic sauce then it was tooo salty like eat ready will get kidney failure. so i lost my appetite and didnt eat much. wasted man.. all the cheese.. oh well.
hmmm monday shall be a happy day! miss you! =)
went to do mani and pedi with mom today after jap class. was her first time doing she was so suaku! haha! like getting amazed at everything. and of course mom paid for it! weee! so now my toe nails and finger nails are all chilli red. =D had sushi tei for lunch. uuuuber filling. then dinner had pepper lunch but i spammed too much honey garlic sauce then it was tooo salty like eat ready will get kidney failure. so i lost my appetite and didnt eat much. wasted man.. all the cheese.. oh well.
hmmm monday shall be a happy day! miss you! =)
remember always to smile. 1:01 AM.
Monday, July 13, 2009
hmmm i feel happy and damn sweet right now! feel like sharing my joy with the whole world!!!! i'm going crazy! hehe!
hmmm oh ya! one more good thing to be happy about is that.. i think i'm losing weight. recently my appetite hasn't been good so i'm not eating a lot. which has made me kinda lost weight i guess. today there was presentation and i wore formal. just 3 or 4 weeks ago when i wore the same skirt for debates it was fitting like just nice. but today it felt much looser! sooo i conclude i've become thinner! only slightly though. BUT! its still worth cheering! ^ ^ weee!
shall aim to loose more weight! ooooh yea! =)
hmmm oh ya! one more good thing to be happy about is that.. i think i'm losing weight. recently my appetite hasn't been good so i'm not eating a lot. which has made me kinda lost weight i guess. today there was presentation and i wore formal. just 3 or 4 weeks ago when i wore the same skirt for debates it was fitting like just nice. but today it felt much looser! sooo i conclude i've become thinner! only slightly though. BUT! its still worth cheering! ^ ^ weee!
shall aim to loose more weight! ooooh yea! =)
remember always to smile. 10:05 PM.
