band





i really miss band.. though i don't seem like the really enthu kind in band but i really do love band deep down.. i always look forward to going to band all the time.. though on days when we all are tired or during the syf period, when we are all stressed up and extremely tired, i tend to forget the purpose of doing all these is cause i love band, but i still love band.. haish. what am i saying.. aiyo.. still, it'd be stepping down soon.. no matter how much i don't want that to happen i still have to.. it'd miss my bari.. miss my section haha!! they are just so cute haha.. always so no image.. =) i'd miss sitting there watching how Doreen make fun of kim hui.. oops!! jin hui i meant haha.. ^^ and Daphne haha.. always whisper across to elo that side.. oh ya.. then there's hwee joo.. haha!! lynette lee always can't stand the way i like to tickle hwee joo haha.. will rmb how hwee joo and i always make fun of certain ppl when they over react.. secret.. ^^ and there's still jolene, elo, wan ling, yen ling, Donovan, ya.. to sec 2s.. i believe they all can de.. Donovan too!!! argh.. i won't scold him any more.. i promised him.. haha. oh! and and and.. hwee joo.. i believe she will get to love bari and really play it well. =) i have faith in her and i see potential.. i believe Doreen and Daphne will do a great job in bringing the section to the next level.. =)) at sec 3 only i already see them having some nice tones and intonations and personal style. jiayou!! imaging when they reach sec5!! woots!* haish.. and so much more i will miss.. i'll miss lynette's squeaks and lame jokes.. ahahah!! oh and recently.. her many many many books.. =) and there's still my dearest si hui.. the chances of seeing her will be so little.. i'd miss walking to cp when her and singing so loudly together and then trying to break mer and yunjie apart.. haha!! I'd miss walking to cp and spending time with the banditz and the rest.. miss sitting outside the lrt and having the lrt ppl "talk" to us through the PA system.. lol! miss mr png's speeches, mr lum's cuteness, the band's atmosphere, the band room's smell, being qm.. though tiring but i'd miss moving all the stands and banners.. helping ppl that oil and grease and recording who borrow instru.. everything about band.. the memories of the moment i step into the band room till the day i step out.. i'd keep with me for ever.

crap




oh hell to all these freaking crap.. for some idiotic reason i've been really emo and moody these few days.. and its causing me to be really sensitive and suspicious of things and its affecting my friendship.. i hate this. and for some other idiotic reason i'm feeling really dizzy and giddy everyday.. like my vision is spinning.. and like i'm going to faint.. it's like really really irritating.. if my body wants to faint then just faint.. stop all these dizzy, giddy attacks bla bla.. exams suck.. they really do. i HATE the Singapore educational system.. what's the use of studying so much?!!! its not like all of us aspire to be scientists or doctors.. all i want is to live a peaceful life with a sustainable income.. isn't that what all of us want? duh..

though school's boring but still.. after school is fun.. cause i can go meet SKYband ppl.. haha! -.-''' but they are really nice ppl.. nigel saved my life twice.. haha!! oh and xiao ting.. she's really nice to confide in.. ^^ and all the rest of the group they're really fun to spend time with.. =)) but i really don't prefer them over my other friends.. they all are my friends.. i just don't want misunderstandings.. i suck.. i really do.. i always make things end up being horrible.. T.T haish..

anyway.. that day it was really funny.. haha. cause when i was going up to 2nd floor to meet sk ppl then i saw two patrolling cops walking towards xiao ting that side.. then i called xiao ting to ask them to siam.. cause the last time we saw a cop they chased us away.. ya so i asked them to quickly siam.. then i run by the other way so that i can reach them before the cop does.. so xiao ting they all quickly keep their playing cards first then when i opened the door i saw the two cops right in front of me. and one of them said " eh! hi!! " and i was like who is he then i realised!!! he's my sister's friend?!!! aka my pri school close senior whom i had lost touch with. how weird can it get?? first i thought him to be a horrid cop who's gonna chase my friends away then not only did he not chase them away, he's my friend.... LOL!!!!!! so we ended up standing their and chatting for 5 mins while xiao ting they all stare in amazement then he left.. so funny.. haha! anyway.. of all things why must he be a military cop?? he's in the army. lol.. a medic or anything would be much more fun.. duh.. who cares.

argh.. EXAMS!!! as if the thought of having to sit for exams isn't bad enough.. it has to be in the hall with the extremely freaking cold air con on.. and the papers are gonna be real tough next week.. CHEM!! PHYS!! A MATHS!! GEOG!! HIST!! SS!! BLABLA!!!! i wanna die.. dizzy head.. body's telling me to rest but time's telling me to continue.. i keep studying but nothing gets in.. i study so much at home.. but ppl around me just keep thinking that i don't.. i feel useless..

ARGH!!! MENTAL BREAKDOWN! T.T