why is it that the guy u like never ever likes u back whereas useless random ppl always end up liking u for no reason. as if being so tall isnt big enough a problem.. marvelous.....

so i ended up going out with raymond and reyner. i was supposed to go out with them plus shiying and brian at first until things got mixed up and i was told we're not going out ready. but i had already lied to my mom telling her i'd be home late and if i ended up going home early it'll be like weird and she'll know somehtings up. so i asked hannah out instead.

but while i was stoning in pal room those idiots told me they still wanna go out just that brian and shiying cant come along. so i went dinner with them in the end. so lame right? i know.. why am i even blogging about this anyway? LOL...

so we ate at Ding Tai Fung and ray offered to pay for part of my bill. MIRACLE! the guys were damn nice today. so weird... then we chated from like i think 6 plus till 10pm. then homed. rey waited for my bus with me. another miracle! LOL!

its finally the hols but i dont feel the holiday spirit. there're 3 projs to do and so many events to plan. not forgeting that my mon, tues, and wed of the first wk would be taken away from me by the events management workshop... GAH!

later at 9am there's the cleaning of pal room and at 12pm there's the YOG volunteers thingy at expo... busy busy busy!

my mom insists that i go shopping with her on sun for my super super SUPER belated birthday present. (note: my bday was in nov) its been like what? 7 months?

anyway. no matter how i look at it, this hols still seem like a dread to me. oh well what can i expect...... BOOHOOO!

i'm like hiding in the pal room right now. just now ponned mkting tut cos wanted to finish efma so by the time we were done with efma it was too late to go tut. so here i am waiting for hannah's lessons to end at 6pm cos i dun wanna go home. its finally the hols man. i dont wanna just go home like some lame shit person.

i thought i'd get some peace in pal room but apparently some idiots are playing games outside and they're fucking noisy. feel like screaming at them to shut the fuck up. but this is a school and its common property so wth...

i feel so sian recently. pal's freaking busy and i hardly have any time for myself. i used to think having time for myself isnt very impt but ever since i've gotten so busy with sch and pal i really think alone time is really impt. last time i'd think being alone is sooo sad case and i hated it. but now i find it ok. maybe its a self esteem thing but who cares i just wanna have more alone time. without random ppl calling me up to ask about things or ask me to do things, without my mom screaming at me about stuff around house, and without irritating childish shit ppl screaming non stop outside the room.

dont get me wrg i still wanna have fun and still know how to have fun. i havent turned into a boring shit human. its just that sometimes when u wanna have some peace u find that its such a difficult thing.

oh ya.... why are some things so difficult? =(

omg.... i just saw a post on msn.com saying that adam lambert has admited that he is gay!!! and apparently he has a boyfriend. i dont know what to think of it. so weird.......................! i mean he's cool and hot and his singing is marvelous hmmm but just didnt expect him to really be gay. but must really give it to him for being so open bout it.

anyway i'm gonna go slp. nights world!