byebye to "someone" & "hey". though you two are probably the same person. regardless, BYE! =)

ok i feel dumb. after much walking around i'm finally in the library alone. after school today we had meeting with ms janette in the SA office meeting room for the F1 event and then we went around printing the flyers, tickets, and committee passes. then we went to get some supplies and then we went to the library to sit down and discuss. so we plonked ourselves in a random corner and started discussing. and after that chrsity, shawn, and jc had to go off and ifah stayed to accompany me cause i begged her to cause i have to stay till 4pm which is my MILK comm meeting. so she accompanied me till 2.45 pm or so and then we headed to the SA office to book stuff for the road show booths. then ifah and i split at block J cause i thought i could go sit at a table near the nypal room where they have power plugs but end up all the tables were taken so i went up to the fifth floor but there were still taken and then to the sixth and it was the same. so i went to take the lift down and this guy was staring at me like i'm some crazy girl who climbed six stories to just take the lift down while carrying a pile of flyers. =.= so i headed back to library and here i am. i feel so damn dumb la. anyway.. i have 20 mins left till my meeting.. i wonder how my comm members are like. hope i get along with them. >.< oh man. ok gonna slowly pack up and head over. byebye! =)

so well we didnt get our POM results in the end. winnie didnt finish marking them. haish. christy was freaking out before POM tut cause she's really good at POM and she was hoping for good results. then during POM some dumb dumb person went to tell christy that winnie's only marked a bit and there were a few failures. so christy freaked out even more.. i mean seriously that person should have just shut it. oh well after a while she got better and all. and then something happened. hmmm..... oh well today was slightly better than yesterday for me cause i'm less emo. didnt think so much about my "emptiness" so i guess that helped? hmmm need to sleep now. there's econs tut later on. wonder if we're gonna get our results. oh and "No Air" is playing on 987. i'm totally in love with this song! ok! byebye! =)

its AFA lesson now and jowena is telling us cases of fraud. its quite interesting but most of all it wasted some of the time. so YEAH!! and now the lesson starts. =( later today we'll be getting back our POM ica1 results and i'm having mixed feelings about it cause i know very well that i wont be getting good results but yet i'm worried at how bad the results would be. hmmm. btw shawn is damn funny. he folded his shirt and put it on the table and lied on it to sleep. haa! so funny yet cute. christy is so fortunate. =) hmmmm ok i think its time i listened to jowena. if not when test time comes i'll get shit results again. byebye! ^^

recently i dont know whats happening to me. i tend to get really forgetful like i forget things really easily. major case of stm. like major major case. and my views of life are constantly changing. sometimes i think i'm fine alone but sometimes i think i need someone by my side. sometimes i think i'm happy with my life and yet at times i think i hate my life. i'm constantly thinking about what people are thinking and yet i know i shouldnt be thinking so much cause its not good for me. i've worked so hard to change my temper and improve myself and yet at times i find myself sinking into the past unknowingly. what should i do? what CAN i do? i dont like this feeling.

shermy and i!!! =))

clarence and i. =)

norman!!

yesterday i finally got to meet sherman and the gang. =) i went to meet sherman and cx first at tampines mall then we headed over to sarah's house tgt. it was quite cool actually. cause while we were on the train cx and i started to plug in our music and we were all sitting in a row and it seemed as though we were on our way to MI early in the morning again. brings back so many memories. =) really enjoyed PAE. going to school everyday knowing that we're going there just to play and have fun with our friends. haa!

when we reached sarah's place we set up the tables and all then we could start eating already. i was starving like crazy cause i hadnt eaten for the whole day and my stomach was hurting. so ya while we were eating we were chatting and catching up with each other asking about each other's schools and ccas and all sorta stuff. and inbetween all these sherman, cx, jolene, and i kept running to the living room to watch tv to catch the moment that cx gets slapped by constance song. quite cool eh? haa! so ya after that slapping scene we decided to concentrate on our food and chats. jolene has a bf!!! awww so happy for her cause she seems really happy and blissful. =) so ya then cx had to leave really soon so we camWHORED a bit and then walked her out and so the night continued. chatted, played mahjong, a bit of pool(totally trashed sherman btw. haaa!) and camWHORED even more with sherman of course (ultimate camWHORE partner) and then we went home tgt.

today was our first F1 comm meeting without ms jan. today we didn't do much stuff though. did some booking for the items needed for the booth but then ms jan told me that the event has been postponed from 1 july to 15 july.. so we had to plan the dates for the giving out of flyers and the dates for the roadshows too. oh well. tmw it'll be yet another meeting with ms jan. hope this time she'll be able to give us more info on the event itself. the one on F1 not niu nai.

hmmmm talking to sherman on the phone now. i'm sooooooo looking forward to the meeting with all the MI ppl. ^^

oh ya oh ya!! today something hilarious happened. there we were, christy ifah and i, walking out of koufu with our arms locked tgt when we decided to make a grand exit from koufu by kicking the door open. so as we approached the door i lifted my leg and kicked the door. well silly me thought that the door would be quite heavy so i used a little more strength and who knew the door just slammed all the way and hit the wall behind it with a huge huge "BANG!". and even worse, the metal handle dropped off on both sides man!!! like what the....!! i ended up laughing like a crazy woman cause i was so shocked and all. (you know like ppl laugh in such situations. its a girl thing i guess) so shawn and betrand were nice enough to each pick up one side of the handle and then they were like trying to fix it back but it didnt work cause my kick apparently was too powerful resulting in the thingy that connects the two sides through the door to be broken. =.= so we went to this office place to return the handle but the lady asked us to find the manager in koufu. and we went around koufu with the handles trying to ask for the manager. i was like feeling totally super duper uper guilty. like omg!!! how can the thing fall off anyway!! well so we found the manager anyway and handed the handles to her and she was like "omg! this one need money one leh!! why so violent!! tsk tsk tsk...." and ya i was feeling guilty for like quite a while till darling christy managed to make me happier. =) thx darling!

oh ya and today i managed to mingle more with jerald aka "L". =) found out that he's quite a fun guy. i especially loved it when he stood at the passage way and just stared at the clouds. was quite nice to just slow down and take a good look at nature. =)

omg its 5 am and i'm still awake. i swear having a lappie all to my own use and finally having internet at home is an evil evil eeeeevil combination. cause it deprives me from sleep...

hmmm i feel like blogging again. hahaa!!

hmmm the radio's playing "when you believe" and it reminded me of ben. hehee! oh ya ok shall blog about his birthday celebration. his birthday was on 6 june. though we didnt get to help him celebrate on the day itself marc and i managed to help him celebrate on 11 june. the day right after my pal camp. had archery training in the morning then rushed home to get ready to meet them at gardens. i was like late for 50 mins when my hse was only 4 bus stops away which is less than 5 mins away. haha!! ben was there super early and he had to wait damn long. so poor thing. sorry ben!! =/ hmm then when marc finally arrived (he was the lastest. not me! ^^) we headed to cartel. it was quite dumb actually cause we took the long route to cartel without realising there was a much much shorter way to get there. oh well so it was about 6 plus and the sky was still bright and we werent hungry yet so we thought maybe it'll be a good idea to take the outside seats and chill out through the night cause it looked like a nice spot. but... after being served water.. we realised that the location was actually quite gross cause ther was a tree above us and there where falling flowers and ants and what looked like bird shit and all.. so we requested to shift in. much better but marc was cold. like =.= anyways. after dinner we strolled to a nearby park and chatted for almost 2 hrs. felt damn nice. at first ben and marc were trying to scare me after they found out that i'm not exactly very for the topic of ghosts. but then they stopped cause ben was nice enough to get marc to shut up. then we sat the top of the spider web and chatted away while marc cursed at every single dog that passed by cause apparently he hates dogs. then we got down and ben and i went to a corner so that i could give him his birthday present which was a song. i re-wrote the lyrics. ^^ and so i sang for him and he loved it =D and after i sang he said something really really sweet! thx ben!! it made my day and the next day as well actually. haha!! well the day ended with the guys plotting to ask for a girl's number by the roadside (which totally failed by the way. they didnt even get to ask) and us having ice cream at macs. then it was home. ^^ well ben claims that he can still rmb the song but i doubt so man. well regardless, that day was great. =D

hmmm well i've been thinking. sherman says that i've changed quite a bit recently. and they're negative changes. is it true? well i have realised some changes in me but not those that he mentioned. maybe the ones he noticed were the effect of the ones i noticed. did that make sense? oh well. i've been feeling very guilty towards him recently. cause i've been so busy with poly stuff that i neglected him some bit. i dont like it at all. i mean i love poly and everything that i'm doing now. but i seriously dont like having to neglect my friends. oh man... if only my mom wasnt so strict with me then i'd be able to meet up with sherman at night. since we stay so near and all. the other day he just asked me to meet him downstairs to watch a dvd together but it was totally impossible cause it was 11pm and my mo definately wouldnt allow me to. and as i was busy i think i didnt reply sherman in a very nice tone. oh man what's with me recently. i find myself getting quite short-tempered when i' busy and tired. my temper has recently caused a not very nice incident to happen and it was horrid. i need to stop this man. i mean like it took me so long and so much hard work to get my temper right. i'm so not gonna let my temper revert back to what it was man. i'll hate myself if that happens. CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL!! oh man. i hope everything works out.. i want to do so much and i know i can do it but i dont know how to manage my time properly so that everything works out fine. i seriously need time management classes. or maybe i just need to listen more during POM lessons so that i know how to be effective and efficient. oh man... some one help me.

HELLO!!!!!


its been a long long time since i last blogged. well i am feeling really proud of myself for reviving my blog. ^^ i changed my blogskin and re-did some stuff. well.. one yr of not blogging. hmmmm high time i started ya?

anyway. back to my life now. well a lot has happened in the past yr and i shan't even start to list the events that took place. but basically, i've graduated from nchs and i went on to have PAE in MI which was a blast. i made lots of friends and experienced a lot. and i'll definately miss the times there. =)

now i'm in nyp pursuing a diploma in business management and i'm loving it. =) i've got a great clique : christy, shawn, ifah, kenneth, chris, tim, zi hui. hmmm what else? oh ya! and i'm in nyp student union, nypal, and of course nyp archery!!!!!! =) for archery, i've passed my basic course with 3rd highest score for practical for that day's batch. how cool is that! ^^ nypal's camp was on 9 & 10 june and it was a total blast! and now i'm in committee for an upcoming f1 event. heard that the speaker is eye candy! woots! hmmm will logistics get to meet him? i wonder.

well life's pretty cool now. though i'm packed every single day. but its still fun since previously i've been this horrid slacker so i guess its good that i'm making better use of my time now. there's gonna be another meeting for the f1 com but i forgot that there's archery so i'm still thinking whether i'm gonna skip archery training or go for archery and excuse myself inbetween. and on tues i'm finally gonna be able to meet sherman after such a long long time! and of course there's gonna be jolene, cx, sarah, and the rest. wee! =) totally looking forward.

oh btw, i was just reading my older posts just now and i just cant help but to laugh at myself. the things i actually blog about is actually quite funny and childish at times. oh god and my eng in certain posts its quite hilarious. oh well. regardless.. my blog is officially revived and i'm gonna try my best to update my blog as often as possible ok? so you guys must visit my blog often ok? cya!! =)